June 6, 2010/6:35 p.m.

Oh, I want so much to be in control of my eating choices.  I just can’t seem to get there.  I did have a small shift, however, after I wrote on June 4^th.  Just a small shift, where I began to at least look at the choices I’ve been making and begin to make some better ones.  But then, last night, when I stopped at the market for some soy milk for breakfast, I got a sourdough baguette, “so I could finish up the remaining margarine that I had bought, and have it with the yummy blueberry jam that I got for my birthday.  Oh, yeah, that’s good thinkin’ (sound of me laughing at myself).  At least I can laugh about it.  It would be really funny, except for the fact that I’m so uncomfortable and can’t breath.  Only that.

Being able to write here does help, because I feel like I’m not alone, even if no one else is reading this…it feels good to write.